It's almost a year since Prince died and whilst millions of fans plan to unite on April 21st to remember him, some are left in the cold... It doesn't mean their love or grief is any less.
As the first
anniversary of Prince's transition fast approaches, fans and fams
worldwide have plans in order to celebrate his life, honour his
legacy and console/comfort their fellow Purple family in the pain
that fateful day, April 21st brought to us... I don't
have any "official" plans of marking the date. I would love to
go to Paisley Park, just to feel closer to his spirit, experience
that symbolic magic that he left behind but I don't have the funds
and even if I did, my fear of flying would threaten or darken the
experience... So, as he sang "Paisley Park is in your heart...",
that's the closest I'll ever get to it.
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| Prince during the 3121 era |
The last ten months,
for me, has been one long thunderstorm hailing bags of shit with
occasional sunny intervals and the odd breakout of a Purple Rainbow
here and there. Besides sharing my Prince love online Purple Memories – After The Rain my one little piece of comfort has been
being able to say "This time last year, Prince was doing ..., he
appeared on …, he posted … online, etc". He was here, alive!
Once April 21st comes around, there's no more last years,
it'll be an anniversary of Purple Mourning and I'm tired of mourning.
Yes, I'm starting to funk out more whilst listening to the music and
watching videos, but the void of him not physically being here still
hits hard and raw each and every day.
Besides the Purple
Family online and a very supportive, understanding and patient
daughter, there's no-one in my life, I can talk to or grieve with
about Prince. And grief is a very lonely and dark experience. I'm
still struggling to come to terms with the deaths of friends and
family members, so dealing with the loss of Prince, whom I didn't
personally know, is a whole different emotional rollercoaster that I
will carry forever because he was and still is such a huge influence
on my life.
Like I do on special
anniversaries with all my loved ones that have passed, I will light a
candle for Prince on April 21st. I will watch the Purple
Family online from my computer screen and weep at the beautiful
tributes, wishing I could be a part of them but do I have to
officially make a point that I am grieving on the anniversary of his
death? No, because it's always with me and as hard as it is, Prince
taught me as a young teenager, how to grieve alone and that is what
I'll do.
~ DAMWordz
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