Prince! Trust, Loneliness And Privacy - A Purple Reflective

Prince is well known for his sexy and funky "get ur groove on" songs, but one of the main reasons I was drawn to his music back in 1988 was the unique way he could tap into the emotions of trust and loneliness. In these long hurting and confusing days after his tragic passing, trust, loneliness and the privacy he demanded are key features in events surrounding his death. His purple extended family know of the profound love he found in God, but despite the many people that were featured in his inner circle and the Purple Army of fans, did he really have inner peace on Earth?

I've never met Prince, besides his music all I know about him is what has been revealed in interviews by himself and others that have worked with/for him and what I've read in biographies. I've always understood and respected his need for privacy but as a devoted (but not fanatical) fan of his art, beauty and soulful spirit I'd be lying if I said that in 28 years I haven't yearned for a peek behind the purple curtain or a deeper insight into his mystique and almost magical aura. It's a funny thing that no-one asks how we were born, yet feel they should know how we died. Like many others who admired and loved him from a distance, I need to know the reason he was taken away so suddenly and so young. The answer may not bring the closure I personally need to accept his passing, but as the media continue to taint his name and the speculation among the free speech of the public gets wilder and crazier by the day, I'm praying the long awaited official toxicology report will allow Prince's family, loved ones and fans to find a level of peace without the scandal hungry vultures dragging up and twisting BS.

Excerpt from 'There Is Lonely' 

Prince was a truly gifted musician who was charitable, generous and a source of comfort to his fellow contemporaries in their darkest hours, he doesn't deserve this ridicule, this frenzy circus overshadowing his many wonders. Yes he may have upset a few people over the years, broken a few hearts, pissed people off, but what was his crime that justifies the media ripping him apart? The FACT that he kept his private life out of the press' reach for so long maybe? The FACT that all interviews he did do, he controlled with his smart thinking and wisdom? Or maybe the FACT that he was too freaking talented, too generous and so outstandingly loved that they have to dig for something to tarnish that image.

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I cannot accept that Prince just died on Thursday 21^st of April and move on. Two possibilities that have any validity are something went wrong with the medication he was taking/given or that Prince was battling an illness that the public didn't know about. If either or both prove true, the fact that he died alone and possibly for hours until discovered hurts because nobody was there with this man (who had been reported as "unresponsive" and given a "save shot" less than a week before his death) who had been there for so many others during his life. I don't care how famous you are, how at peace with oneself or religious you are, coming round from that experience must've been pretty frightening and even if it was a calling from the Higher Self, wouldn't Prince want to spend time with or leave messages for those whom he loved and cared for? Wouldn't he have made or started making plans on how his affairs and legacy should be handled after his passing? Prince lived and breathed music, we know of his battle with Warner Bros, his strict, almost obsessive fight to keep his music and videos off YouTube and other streaming giants on the internet, yet he didn't TRUST anyone enough to say "If anything happens to me, this is what I want you to do".?

“People say they love U when they wanna help, but how can they when they tell U help urself... The more they say they love U, the more U just wanna die” - 'Holy River' Emancipation © Prince Rogers Nelson 1996 NPG Records

Very little information has come forth from the staff at Paisley Park and of those that Prince hung out with in recent years which is a testimonial honour to his PRIVACY. Being private doesn't always mean keeping or hiding secrets. Sometimes keeping a lid on personal events and tragedies help us to deal with them better. Being in the public eye, it's more understandable, in Prince's case, he profusely fulfilled his duty as a working musician and entertainer in a career spanning over five decades, he deserved to live how he wanted to off the stage without intrusion. The other side of being private, which we are now seeing with Prince in the press, is that people can say whatever they want about you when you're not around to defend yourself as there's no evidence to argue against it. I'm a private person, I act and open up according to the vibe I feel amongst the people I'm surrounded with. People who've known me since childhood may know less about me than the people I've met more recently. Sometimes, the people I feel the most comfortable with are the hardest people to open up to as I don't want to rock that vibe I have with them. From a troubled youngster Prince taught me "In this life, ur on ur own", as an adult still struggling with trust issues, sometimes I feel more alone than ever. I wonder how much in his life, was Prince alone and if he did place his trust in others, how can they and how much power do they have to protect his PRIVACY, his TRUTH and his LEGACY to his best wishes without breaking that code of TRUST?

“Most people in this world are born dead but I was born alive. I was born with this dream, with a dream outside my head, that I could find my way back home.” - 'Way Back Home' Art Official Age ©Prince Rogers Nelson 2014 NPG Records

Shortly after his death and private cremation, a family statement revealed that Prince had instructed his loved ones that he "didn't want no fuss" surrounding his death, which I have no reason to disbelieve, yet it makes it so much harder to accept that this meticulously structured and private man has left with so many holes in his purple net for the vultures to pick at, therefore creating a fuss. The amount of claims made towards a share of his fortune stands now at over 700 people. A few memorials/celebrations of life have taken place, yet none have been classified official (*Tyka Nelson has hinted an official memorial will take place in August) and there appears to be a slight divide among the family and friends remembering him. Regardless of his fame, from the outside looking in, it's a sad, almost pitiful sight. The love for Prince around the world is unmeasurable, he had to have known it surely, but did he really feel it? Did it bring him comfort when personal troubles were worrying him? So many questions and so little answers make Prince's death as mysterious as the way he lived his life. If it wasn't so tragic and painful, one would probably assume he planned it that way.

*Tyka Nelson is Prince's sister and next of kin